Law exists in a field of pain and death. That’s the first sentence of an article I read 1L year. I’ve said that line to myself over and over again, hundreds of times, in these last few years. It’s the truest thing I’ve read in this place. Pain and death. The courtroom is a place of pain and death. I hold this line like a talisman, repeat it like a prayer. It obliterates the biggest lie the law tells about itself, rips aside the façade of civility and order and sterile justice the law hides behind.
Haven’t we been hearing that story all day today? Haven’t we been hearing it for weeks now? Let due process take its course. Let the system work. Here, in the court room, law and order. There, out on the streets, violence and destruction. We are so invested in that piece of fiction. Look at how people dress in a courtroom. Look at the finely pressed suits, look at how we stand up when the judge walks in, look at the solemn oaths and the under Gods, and the justice. This is what civility looks like. This is how civilized people behave.
These structures are set in place to keep the violence and the sheer terror of what happens in the court at bay. The judge announces the sentence, then we all rise, and he walks off to his elegant chambers with dark oak desks and handsome thick texts. He never watches the families collapse in heaving sobs. He doesn’t put chains on a human and lead him to a dark cell. The judge says, neglect, but someone else walks into the playroom where the children are waiting for mommy to finish court. Someone else watches a mother who was guilty of just being poor saying goodbye to her children, that she’ll try to get them back, someone else pulls the sobbing children apart and takes them away. The person who administers the injection is not the same person who decided the cocktail should puncture the skin and see, everyone is absolved, no one has blood on their hands. It’s all very orderly. Rule of law. Nothing violent about saying a word (the word)– violence is looters in a convenience store. Sticks and stones.
You can’t fucking win, that’s the thing. That’s what you have to know. Maybe you care about the police state, and you care about the incarceration of colored bodies. And so you say, fuck prosecutors, fuck their unbridled discretion, fuck these one sided grand jury proceedings, where the prosecutor can say anything and bring anyone and the accused doesn’t even have a right to fucking defend himself, much less be present for the proceedings. Fuck how badly the decks are stacked against the accused, the systems that decide your guilt before the cuffs go on your hands. Fuck all of that, on most days—but maybe a broken clock can be right, this time. Maybe when a black body is the victim instead of the accused, maybe we can make that work for us. Maybe just this one time, the decks are stacked for us.
But, nah. Did you forget what I said? Remember that for colored bodies, the court room is place of pain and death. You can’t fucking win, you see. It’s all very orderly, very organized, like an equation, set up so that you know the answer before you even start solving the problem. Rule of law, motherfuckers. Now, please stop causing violence and destruction out on the streets. That kind of behavior is for the courtroom.
“A system cannot fail those it was never meant to protect.”